Saturday, October 6. Day four. Being at home on this diet was way easier than being at work. At work, it's just me and I have to be strong because there are temptations all around me. At home it's much easier because Jackson and I are a united team and we have made sure that there isn't anything in our house that we can not have. When I open the fridge, I only see fruits, vegetables and a few condiments, so I am forced to make the right decision. I need that kind of structure because at this point I don't trust myself completely - I am weak. I haveto give myself a little credit though because so far I have resisted all temptations and cravings. Speaking of cravings, I awoke Friday morning to the voice of the Waffle House patty melt calling my name and his little sidekick, hash browns, was singing a song. I knew I had heard the song before on the jukebox, "Waffle House hash browns I love you". Scattered, smothered, covered and chunked, please. Oh, go ahead and pepper it too, because I like it hot. I could almost taste the buttery, cheesy goodness and that craving stayed with me all day. But I resisted. Having Jackson to go through this with me makes all the difference. We talk about our challenges and victories and encourage each other every step of the way. He's a wonderful, amazing person and he is so committed to being successful. He gives me strength. And he also makes my heart go pitter patter.Day four was a good day, but out of the blue last night I had an emotional melt down. I am not sure what brought it on, my guess would be a combination of things. You see, I am a worrier. That is my plight in life. I worry about everything I do in some way or another and I constantly second guess myself. I am very hard on myself to the point of exhaustion and last night I was feeling beat down. I crumbled and sobbed until I was too tired to think about it anymore. This morning I awoke to a throbbing headache and an empty stomach. So begins the day.