Still at -53 lbs. and haven't budged much at all. I guess this is the plateau that people talk about. Since there is not much to report, my posts will continue to be light until something happens. I don't feel the need to post the same boring information week after week about how nothing has changed. In the meantime, I will not give up. I will never give up. Not now. Not after I've come this far.

Week 35 - No news is good news. I am still holding on at -53 lbs. and I'm damn proud of that accomplishment. Despite everything that we have going on, I have managed to maintain my weight. I even went on a solo roadtrip Memorial Day weekend and managed to lose 1.5 lbs. while I was gone. That is unheard of for me. In order to kick start the weight loss again, we are back in the box meaning we are attempting to only eat vegetables, fruit and lean cuisine type meals. Drinking lots of water is key and that's one thing we haven't wavered on. Dehydration can cause all sorts of problems; it's important to consume at least 64 oz. of water daily. I don't know if my cravings will ever stop. Maybe it's something I will always struggle with. I eat lots and lots of fruit and vegetables and even though I'm not hungry, I normally don't feel satisfied. Sometimes my thoughts are consumed with food and how happy I would feel if I could just have a few bites. It's crazy really. Today I was weak and had 2 slices of pizza...after I ate my lean cuisine. It smelled so good and I did not try very hard to resist. It tasted good, but really wasn't worth it. That's usually the case and I know that going in, but I just need to taste it. Despite my crazy food obsession I still feel like I am making progress. One step at a time.

Week 32? What week is this anyway? I can't seem to keep track of anything these days. I know life is busy for everyone, but it seems especially so for us right now. I'm not complaining because, generally speaking, I enjoy being busy and even a little hectic. We're selling our house, Jackson's dad had double bypass surgery a few weeks ago and my mom just had brain surgery last week. On top of all of that, my supervisor at work is on maternity leave so I have taken on a lot more responsibility. Every night it seems like we have something going on and in between that we have to do laundry and clean the house and take care of the dogs and somehow spend some quality time with each other. It's really not too bad, I'm just doing the best I can and going with the flow of things. I said all of that to make a point that eating healthy in the midst of chaos is very hard. We have been making an effort and considering the situation I think we've both done great. There hasn't been much time for exercise so I'm still holding on at 53 pounds lost and just taking it one day at a time.

Official Week 30 Results
Down 1 lb. for the week
Down 79 lbs. total

I managed to get back the one I gained last week. I suppose I should only comment on a week that isn't crazy and stressful. Because it seems like that is the default state right now. I went to the gym today and had one of the best workouts I've every had. I want to build on that and push myself even harder this coming week.

Week 29 +2 lbs

Yikes! So much for staying the same. Hopefully things will slow down soon and I'll have more time for exercise. So far this week has been crazy too.

Official Week 29 Results
Up 1 lb. for the week
Down 78 lbs. total

It was a highly stressful week, so I'm glad I only managed to gain one. Time to hit the gym hard to get back on track.

Week 27 & 28

I've managed to maintain my weight the last two weeks, not losing or gaining. I guess that's good in the whole scheme of things. I have had a lot going on so I'm completely amazed that I have been able to hold steady. When I'm stressed I eat, and although I have indulged my cravings a little more than I probably should have, there is a notable difference from how I would have handled the stress before. I feel guilty for comforting myself with food and I realize that's addiction. That's the difference. I'm working on it.